re-post from old blog June 14, 2022

I have noticed lately, more so than usual, that I am undoubtedly an introvert for life, perhaps. When I walked today, it was so very HUMID, even at 8pm here and it was a struggle to keep going. I have been feeling lately no matter how consistent I am that I am still struggling. It feels like punishment for bad behavior and I searched my room over for my #Leslie Sansone Miracle Miles. I bought that I want to say, perhaps 2 years ago. Even if it’s raining, I won’t have an excuse that it’s raining…But then again perhaps I would still think of an excuse. 

My eating could be better but I have incorporated lots of leafy green salads in my daily diet. I will be exploring starting lifting weights again soon as well. Nothing drastic just some 3 lbs dumbbells to get things started off. I gave up making changes for so long. I was waiting…waiting for things that will never happen and not moving forward. Waiting for this pandemic to be over, waiting to feel safe to go back to the gym. I still do not feel safe going back to the gym and have become like a shut in only going out for Dr. Appointments and the very rare trip to the Dollar General for everything else I have delivered.
 
I have gotten to the point that I am on a general schedule taking my vitamins D-3, Fish Oil, & GNC women’s daily essentials. Does it help? Not sure. I am still on the fence with that still. I opened a YouTube channel for my walking video’s thinking that might get me out of my comfort zone, but I don’t know if it will or not. It’s terrifying showing the world what you weigh at 365 lbs and expecting support or understanding. Losing weight is a personal journey and hard to open up about because it’s a cut that makes you bleed daily. Only those who live it can fully understand.